Mr Scorpio

"Hi Katy!" "Mr Scorpio!" This was a suprise. I wasn't expecting to see him tonight at all. Here I was at a happy hour/apartment showing (I love when these kinds of things are combined)trying to play it as cool as I can with Renaissance Boy. Somewhat ignoring him while at the same time keeping an eye on him. I'm chatting with some of my new found girlfriends, he's not too far away talking with the boys. It was getting late. Since the happy hour was on the roofdeck of said apartment building, they were starting to ask us to leave. Bitchy Poo (for there are no other words to describe her) had sauntered up to Ren Boy and was chatting him up. Since it was time to go, I casually got up with the intention of going over and kissing him good night. Aren't we all occassionally entitled to let out our inner bitchy poo?

I was approaching Ren Boy and Miss Bitch, when Scorp intercepted me. It was like it happened in slow motion. Ten years ago, I would have loved this. Ten years I was fawning all over Mr Scorpio, much the way Bitchy Poo is to Ren Boy at the moment. But for me, right now, I'm left speechless; unfortunately, not breathless. Scorpio and I have quite a past, and although I would have thought I'd have loved for it to be a romantic past, it never quite evolved into that.

Imagine a younger Katy, say early twenties. She's in her first job. Not quite fresh out of college, but close enough. She's enjoying work, just got her first car, is enjoying her new found freedom, and is looking for some fun. Fun comes along in the way of Mr Scorpio.



Mr. Scorpio is twleve years her senior. He's close to her height, which for this young Katy is something she never really thought she'd be able to consider, being as petite as she is. He's cute, sexy, and has a zest for life that Katy had always envied but was never quite able to work up the gumption to display. He works in the same building as her and is introduced to her at the building holiday party. She's enchanted. He comes up to see her in her office, she goes down to see him. They go to lunch, have great discussions. Then he comes up one day and drops a bombshell. He tells her he's been in an on-again/off-again relationship for several years. He's very attracted to Katy, and if here weren't mixed up with this other woman, he'd definitely be dating Katy. So Katy tells him she understands. Could they still be friends? Sure, says Scorp. (This is Katy's first big mistake.) Then Scorp's friend starts working at his organization. Scorp stops coming up to see Katy, but sends his friend instead. Katy likes the guy as a friend, but is really interested in Scorp. After all, he's the hot one! The three of them start going out after work: dinner, shows, nothing too much, but they're in the city, why not. Eventually, (maybe not too eventually but Katy is young and doesn't realize) the friend starts liking Katy. Of course being young and inexperienced and being interested in Scorpio, she totally misses this. Looking back, I think this may have been Scorpio's intention, then he could let me off the hook and not feel guilty.)

The friend starts getting friendlier, and after a bit a little too close for Katy's comfort. But the three of them keep going out. Katry's having so much fun, she doesn't really care if they're going out on the town as a threesome. And the friend seems harmless enough. She sets up a double date with one of her girlfriends. Hoping to get Scorp's friend off her back. It sort of works, but then he starts to call her girlfriend. A lot. She finds out from Scorp that his friend is borderline bipolar, and has gone through some bouts of major depression. Meds work, but he doesn't really like taking his meds. But around the same time, the friend gets let go from his job. So Katy figures he won't become a problem and she doesn't have to worry. But he starts calling her. A lot. And once or twice he comes into the city during the work day just to see Katy. If she were interested, she would be flattered. As it is, she's a little creeped out. Her girlfriend says that he was calling her a lot too, and she was considering him to be stalker material. There was a lot of freaky phone calls and messages, and Scorps friend eventually did wind up in a hospital for a while. But then Katy changed her phone and her friend did too. So he couldn't find them, adn things went back to normal more or less.

During this same time, Katy was actually trying to put the moves on Scorpio. She figured that if he was interested even a little maybe he would eventually leave his on-again/off-again for her. Yes of course he wasn't going to do this, but we're all young once and have to learn this stuff through experience. There was quite a bit of heavy petting, and to this day, Scorp was the best kisser I've ever known. But in the end I got a new job in NYC, and moved there for awhile. It took a whole new relationshsip with the Italian Stallion from Brooklyn to get Scorp off my mind, but it worked. And the Italian Stallion was definitely a lot of fun while it lasted. The Italian Stallion was my first. Yes, ok so I was a little older for my first, but I feel like it was good that I waited a bit. I could fully appreciate him and what we were doing and yet still feel like I was young enough for it not to be weird. But all that's a post for another time.

Mr Scorpio and I have kept in touch off and on through the years. He's no longer seeing that woman, and has been in a couple of other relationships since then. He still can't hold down a decent job, and still only wants to know where the next party is. It was very surreal seeing him up there on that roof deck where I was trying to fit in with my new friends. I missed my opportunity to kiss Ren Boy goodnight and rub Bitchy's nose in it. Actually, I missed Ren Boy altogether, which might be for the best. I mean, what was I rubbing her nose in anyway? I'm not his girlfriend anymore. I should just leave him alone and let him be. I don't need to be confusing him. Because although I still care about him and want things to turn out right for him, I don't want him as a boyfriend. He's just not what I need.

It's times like this that I really wish I were married to my right guy with children and a family already. I'm tired of the whole singles scene rat race. For yes, it is it's own rat race. Calling Mr Right (not Mr Right Now)! I'm ready for you. Where are you? And when are you going to rescue me from this pretensious hell I'm living in at the moment?