Update

I have been horribly lax with this blog of late, and I apologize. Things are moving along at the speed of light, or dragging along slow as a turtle, depending on how one looks at it. I was re-reading my most previous posts, to see where I had left things, and just to bring things up to date...

I did not get into Drexel's MS in Info Sys program. I wound up having to take the GRE's twice and still not a fabulous score, but should have been adequate. Apparently not. It may be a blessing in disguise, though. As I was doing some soul searching, as I've been doing for the past month or so I realized, that I really don't want to go into the computer field. Sure, it's good money and where technology is going, but all in all, I know it won't make me happy.

Rori Raye's book put a whole new persepective on things for me. So much so that I would up getting one of her audio courses as well. It really helped me put things into perspective not just with the Gipper, but with other things and relationships in my life. My mom also helped in this respect as well, as she is wont to do. The audio course helped me realize that I really need (and actually when I think about it want) to have a purpose in this life. What I was having a hard time realizing is that another person born or otherwise) can't be my purpose. I knew in my head and heart that a man couldn't be my purpose. But I was still stuck in the frame of mind that I want children and they'll be my purpose, but I need a man for that. That was the kicker, CHILDREN can't be my purpose. That's as wrong as me making the man in my life my purpose.

So, I've thought about off an on that I would like to write. That's what prompted me to start this blog. I know I have a lot of stories in my head all the time. I daydream most of the day (don't tell my boss!). I remember seeing an interview with the author of the Twilight series when the books were just starting to take off. (not a fan of the books, but she was inspiring) She said that once she had written the first book, and it was published and she started talking to people about it, she realized that most people don't have stroies in their heads all the time. She said that she had always gone through her day with some snippet of a story floating through her head, and I thought, "Me too!" She said, she had always assumed everyone one had stories floating around in their heads, and I thought, "Me too!" But she said that when she started talking with others about it, they didn't have those stories in their heads, and I thought, "Whoa! Maybe someone would be interested in hearing my stories then." So I've decided to start putting them down. Which brings me to my current big diecision...

I'm getting a new Apple laptop. Well, actually the Macbook Air, which is somewhere between a laptop and a netbook. I was going back and forth about it. As I've been about a lot of stuff lately. But the funny thing is, where as most of the things I've tried recently have been nipped in the bud before they even get off the ground, when I applied (on a lark) for credit through Apple's site, I got it almost instantly, and more than enough for the computer I want. I took it as a sign. I'm still trying to see if I can work out a deal, to save some, if I can. But hopefully within the next week or so, I will have my very own, not sharing with anyone else in the house, laptop. I'll be able to take it with me, so if I have an event after work, but have a few hours to kill, I can work on it. It will be fabulous!

The Gipper is starting to get on my nerves. I love him, and he can't seem to get me out of his system either since he's been calling me, bit by bit, more and more frequently. But yet he's dating around, and currently (as of maybe last week?) has gotten serious with someone he's been seeing for about a month. What does he want with me? Do I confront him again? Or just let it ride, and treat him as a "puppy dog guy" as Rori calls them. I'm leaning towards Rori's option. She also talks about circular dating, (basically dating a bunch of guys all at the same time with no serious intentions) which I've been trying in very small doses. Mainly just seeing and noticing that men notice me. I never realized, paid attention, but men really notice me! It's really rather exhilirating!

Anyway, I was on facebook yessterday, and noticed that Divorced Dad is single again. So I commented that I was sorry and hoped he was doing ok. So he writes me this long email explaining what happend. I answered today, and he wants to call me! I'm not interested in anything romantic with him. He's not really my type, has way too mcuh baggage, and honestly (this is bad I know) but the sex wasn't all that great. But he's a very nice guy. We had what to talk about I'd be willing to be friends, but that's it. I'll have to see if he'd be ok with that. I'm not looking for anything serious with him. I defintiely know that.

What else...? Oh, the house is still on the market. Surprise, surprise. This is one of the lessons I've been trying to relearn. "Things will only happen when it's time for them to happen." I know this. I've told others this and they've totally taken it to heart. I used to be really good at knowing this, but somewhere in my Gipper addled head I forgot. I must remember. About the house and the Gipper, and everything else that's crazy in my life now. All o fmy balls hav ebeen tosed in the air and they've been hovering there for months now. I need to "Let go and let G-d" cory but true, and trust that he'll see everythign settled as it should be when it should be. So mostly, I need to re-learn my patience. ;)