I know I have been lax with keeping up with this blog. But all of that is about to change! Today I placed an order for a brand new laptop! I got a really good deal on one I've been eyeing for some time. It's light enough that I'll be able to take it with me, and if I have an event that's after work but with a couple of hours leeway time, I can just duck into a Starbucks or bookstore and catch up, or blog, or write, or whatever! Yay!
I had actually gotten a laptop a little over a year ago with similar aspirations, but alas, no sooner had it been delivered than it somehow became the new 'family' computer, even to the extent that my mom now takes it to work with her. I'm still not entirely sure how that happened, but who cares? The new one that's coming is even better, and actually cheaper than the one I got a year ago. Go me! I was trying to post using my phone, but typing a whole long post using those itty bitty keyboards can get old really fast. And, if I let a few days go by without posting, all of my outings pile up and by the time I get around to blogging, I'm overwhelmed at all that I wanted to write about and stall an never get anything posted at all. Once my new computer comes, that's all going to change!
So just a quick update in the meantime...
Went out to dinner with the Shrink this past Friday. I hadn't really talked with her in a bit, so it was nice. I enjoy her company, but sometimes she can be a bit negative, and when I'm trying so hard to keep positive about everything, it can be hard to talk with her. I've found that if I keep things to a minimum, or with others there, we can spread the love around, so to speak.
Saturday, I went with a friend to the Fourth Wall Arts Salon. They have one once a month at a different venue. It's a way for new artists to get their work out, shown, heard. They have all different types of art: vocal, instrumental, visual, dance, poetry, really anything goes. Every month it's different, and every month it's wonderful! This month it was at the National Museum if American Jewish History. I haven't been to the museum proper yet, but now I really want to go back.
Sunday, my mother and sister and I went to see the Capucci fashion exhibit at the Art Museum. Also, wonderful! He started as any other fashion designer, but then decided he wanted to actually use fashion as art, so his more recent fashions are more like movable, wearable sculpture. It was beautiful, fascinating, and mesmerizing.
It's been a fairly quiet week so far, other than working out the details of my COMPUTER! Tomorrow I'm meeting with the girls at Mercato for Dining Out for Life. This is a national event that happens every year where restaurants donate 33% of their proceeds from the night to AIDS research. I remember when it first started about 10 years ago or so. It's very exciting that it's still happening and to see how it's grown. Also, I haven't actually taken part before, so I'm super excited to finally be able to participate. Friday, I'll be going with Rabbi's Daughter to an Arbonne makeup party at one of her friend's. For those few who are reading this blog, have any of you heard of this brand? I checked them out online, and they seem to be for the 40 year olds and older set, and since I'm the oldest in my group of friends at 34, I'm not quite sure what to expect, but we'll see.
OK, now, guy news...
The Gipper is seeing someone, seriously he says although it's only been a month, so we'll see how long it lasts. There were pictures posted on facebook. He took them off of his wall thinking I won't know, but whatever! I can't see just anyone staying with him for very long once they see how emotionally high maintenance he is. And not that it's a bad thing that he is, you understand, just that it'll take a very special person to be able to understand it, and accept him with it, and know how to handle it without going crazy or making him crazy. I know I need to get past him, and move on. I've changed some of the settings so that his postings won't show up in my news feed and so that when i post it won't show up in his. Babyish, perhaps but it may help me not think about him, if I'm not constantly inundated with info about him, you know?
Divorced Dad, remember him? From way back on my other blog perhaps, KatydidFliesAgain. (Actually I just looked, and I'm not sure I ever went into detail about him. But I'll leave that for another post.) Anyway, I was trolling facebook, which I do, and I don't know what made me check his page, but I saw that he had changed his relationship status to singe, so I commented that I was sorry and hoped he was doing ok. So he writes me back this long email about what happened and how he's doing, and so I write him, back and then he asked if he could call me. I said yes, because, why not? It doesn't need to go anywhere, especially since I don't want it to, but it might be nice to have someone else to talk to and maybe think about other than the Gipper. Also, it might be nice to have someone outside of my current social circle who doesn't know him to talk to about everything. So we talked Sunday night, and it was nice, no sparks or anything, but nice. I'll see if he calls again, although if he does and wants to ask me out I'll have to let him know I'm not interested in anything serious with him.
I've been reading a lot and listening to a lot by Rori Raye. She deals with romantic relationships and what things work and what things don't. On the surface, you'd think she's a lot like any other relationship self help program, but hers seems to make sense, and the bits that I've tried out really do work, so I think there might be something to them. Anyway, she has this concept called "circular dating" basically, doing what my mother's been telling me (G-d, she'd laugh if she could read this) and date a bunch of men at the same time. Rori says that there's a definite difference between committed relationship and just exclusivity. Commitment, means that he tells you, "I love you, I want to be with you, you're the one I want." and marriage is definitely on the table. Whereas with Exclusivity, marriage isn't necessarily on the table, but you've taken yourself off the marriage market to only be with one man. It's so obvious, though. Why would you take yourself off the marriage market if he hasn't offered you marriage, or something pretty darn close? Therefore, you date anyone and everyone (within reason of course), and just have fun flirting and having various experiences until someone does offer you marriage and commitment. Now that the weather's getting nicer, I've made up my mind, that I owe it to myself to try this. At least to have a good time.
Anyway, see what I mean about long posts and getting overwhelmed. If you've gotten this far, cool beans! Give me a little shout out and let me know I'm not writing in vain.
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Update
I have been horribly lax with this blog of late, and I apologize. Things are moving along at the speed of light, or dragging along slow as a turtle, depending on how one looks at it. I was re-reading my most previous posts, to see where I had left things, and just to bring things up to date...
I did not get into Drexel's MS in Info Sys program. I wound up having to take the GRE's twice and still not a fabulous score, but should have been adequate. Apparently not. It may be a blessing in disguise, though. As I was doing some soul searching, as I've been doing for the past month or so I realized, that I really don't want to go into the computer field. Sure, it's good money and where technology is going, but all in all, I know it won't make me happy.
Rori Raye's book put a whole new persepective on things for me. So much so that I would up getting one of her audio courses as well. It really helped me put things into perspective not just with the Gipper, but with other things and relationships in my life. My mom also helped in this respect as well, as she is wont to do. The audio course helped me realize that I really need (and actually when I think about it want) to have a purpose in this life. What I was having a hard time realizing is that another person born or otherwise) can't be my purpose. I knew in my head and heart that a man couldn't be my purpose. But I was still stuck in the frame of mind that I want children and they'll be my purpose, but I need a man for that. That was the kicker, CHILDREN can't be my purpose. That's as wrong as me making the man in my life my purpose.
So, I've thought about off an on that I would like to write. That's what prompted me to start this blog. I know I have a lot of stories in my head all the time. I daydream most of the day (don't tell my boss!). I remember seeing an interview with the author of the Twilight series when the books were just starting to take off. (not a fan of the books, but she was inspiring) She said that once she had written the first book, and it was published and she started talking to people about it, she realized that most people don't have stroies in their heads all the time. She said that she had always gone through her day with some snippet of a story floating through her head, and I thought, "Me too!" She said, she had always assumed everyone one had stories floating around in their heads, and I thought, "Me too!" But she said that when she started talking with others about it, they didn't have those stories in their heads, and I thought, "Whoa! Maybe someone would be interested in hearing my stories then." So I've decided to start putting them down. Which brings me to my current big diecision...
I'm getting a new Apple laptop. Well, actually the Macbook Air, which is somewhere between a laptop and a netbook. I was going back and forth about it. As I've been about a lot of stuff lately. But the funny thing is, where as most of the things I've tried recently have been nipped in the bud before they even get off the ground, when I applied (on a lark) for credit through Apple's site, I got it almost instantly, and more than enough for the computer I want. I took it as a sign. I'm still trying to see if I can work out a deal, to save some, if I can. But hopefully within the next week or so, I will have my very own, not sharing with anyone else in the house, laptop. I'll be able to take it with me, so if I have an event after work, but have a few hours to kill, I can work on it. It will be fabulous!
The Gipper is starting to get on my nerves. I love him, and he can't seem to get me out of his system either since he's been calling me, bit by bit, more and more frequently. But yet he's dating around, and currently (as of maybe last week?) has gotten serious with someone he's been seeing for about a month. What does he want with me? Do I confront him again? Or just let it ride, and treat him as a "puppy dog guy" as Rori calls them. I'm leaning towards Rori's option. She also talks about circular dating, (basically dating a bunch of guys all at the same time with no serious intentions) which I've been trying in very small doses. Mainly just seeing and noticing that men notice me. I never realized, paid attention, but men really notice me! It's really rather exhilirating!
Anyway, I was on facebook yessterday, and noticed that Divorced Dad is single again. So I commented that I was sorry and hoped he was doing ok. So he writes me this long email explaining what happend. I answered today, and he wants to call me! I'm not interested in anything romantic with him. He's not really my type, has way too mcuh baggage, and honestly (this is bad I know) but the sex wasn't all that great. But he's a very nice guy. We had what to talk about I'd be willing to be friends, but that's it. I'll have to see if he'd be ok with that. I'm not looking for anything serious with him. I defintiely know that.
What else...? Oh, the house is still on the market. Surprise, surprise. This is one of the lessons I've been trying to relearn. "Things will only happen when it's time for them to happen." I know this. I've told others this and they've totally taken it to heart. I used to be really good at knowing this, but somewhere in my Gipper addled head I forgot. I must remember. About the house and the Gipper, and everything else that's crazy in my life now. All o fmy balls hav ebeen tosed in the air and they've been hovering there for months now. I need to "Let go and let G-d" cory but true, and trust that he'll see everythign settled as it should be when it should be. So mostly, I need to re-learn my patience. ;)
I did not get into Drexel's MS in Info Sys program. I wound up having to take the GRE's twice and still not a fabulous score, but should have been adequate. Apparently not. It may be a blessing in disguise, though. As I was doing some soul searching, as I've been doing for the past month or so I realized, that I really don't want to go into the computer field. Sure, it's good money and where technology is going, but all in all, I know it won't make me happy.
Rori Raye's book put a whole new persepective on things for me. So much so that I would up getting one of her audio courses as well. It really helped me put things into perspective not just with the Gipper, but with other things and relationships in my life. My mom also helped in this respect as well, as she is wont to do. The audio course helped me realize that I really need (and actually when I think about it want) to have a purpose in this life. What I was having a hard time realizing is that another person born or otherwise) can't be my purpose. I knew in my head and heart that a man couldn't be my purpose. But I was still stuck in the frame of mind that I want children and they'll be my purpose, but I need a man for that. That was the kicker, CHILDREN can't be my purpose. That's as wrong as me making the man in my life my purpose.
So, I've thought about off an on that I would like to write. That's what prompted me to start this blog. I know I have a lot of stories in my head all the time. I daydream most of the day (don't tell my boss!). I remember seeing an interview with the author of the Twilight series when the books were just starting to take off. (not a fan of the books, but she was inspiring) She said that once she had written the first book, and it was published and she started talking to people about it, she realized that most people don't have stroies in their heads all the time. She said that she had always gone through her day with some snippet of a story floating through her head, and I thought, "Me too!" She said, she had always assumed everyone one had stories floating around in their heads, and I thought, "Me too!" But she said that when she started talking with others about it, they didn't have those stories in their heads, and I thought, "Whoa! Maybe someone would be interested in hearing my stories then." So I've decided to start putting them down. Which brings me to my current big diecision...
I'm getting a new Apple laptop. Well, actually the Macbook Air, which is somewhere between a laptop and a netbook. I was going back and forth about it. As I've been about a lot of stuff lately. But the funny thing is, where as most of the things I've tried recently have been nipped in the bud before they even get off the ground, when I applied (on a lark) for credit through Apple's site, I got it almost instantly, and more than enough for the computer I want. I took it as a sign. I'm still trying to see if I can work out a deal, to save some, if I can. But hopefully within the next week or so, I will have my very own, not sharing with anyone else in the house, laptop. I'll be able to take it with me, so if I have an event after work, but have a few hours to kill, I can work on it. It will be fabulous!
The Gipper is starting to get on my nerves. I love him, and he can't seem to get me out of his system either since he's been calling me, bit by bit, more and more frequently. But yet he's dating around, and currently (as of maybe last week?) has gotten serious with someone he's been seeing for about a month. What does he want with me? Do I confront him again? Or just let it ride, and treat him as a "puppy dog guy" as Rori calls them. I'm leaning towards Rori's option. She also talks about circular dating, (basically dating a bunch of guys all at the same time with no serious intentions) which I've been trying in very small doses. Mainly just seeing and noticing that men notice me. I never realized, paid attention, but men really notice me! It's really rather exhilirating!
Anyway, I was on facebook yessterday, and noticed that Divorced Dad is single again. So I commented that I was sorry and hoped he was doing ok. So he writes me this long email explaining what happend. I answered today, and he wants to call me! I'm not interested in anything romantic with him. He's not really my type, has way too mcuh baggage, and honestly (this is bad I know) but the sex wasn't all that great. But he's a very nice guy. We had what to talk about I'd be willing to be friends, but that's it. I'll have to see if he'd be ok with that. I'm not looking for anything serious with him. I defintiely know that.
What else...? Oh, the house is still on the market. Surprise, surprise. This is one of the lessons I've been trying to relearn. "Things will only happen when it's time for them to happen." I know this. I've told others this and they've totally taken it to heart. I used to be really good at knowing this, but somewhere in my Gipper addled head I forgot. I must remember. About the house and the Gipper, and everything else that's crazy in my life now. All o fmy balls hav ebeen tosed in the air and they've been hovering there for months now. I need to "Let go and let G-d" cory but true, and trust that he'll see everythign settled as it should be when it should be. So mostly, I need to re-learn my patience. ;)
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