I got news yesterday that an old friend of mine had passed away. He was young, only in his mid- forties, and though I don't know the exact circumstances of his death, I'm pretty sure that it wasn't from "natural causes".
I don't remember if I've mentioned Mutt & Jeff before. They were quite a duo. It was Jeff who passed away. He was a soft spoken, kind, gentle soul. The kind of person you felt you wanted to know cause you felt safe with him. He was a big guy, very tall, and all soft and snuggly. His heart was always in the right place, and he always meant well.
But Jeff wasn't always well. I never learned what exactly was wrong with him, but he definitely was imbalanced in some way. If I garnered a guess, I'd say he had bipolar disorder. When he was taking meds to control it, he was the nicest guy, but he didn't really believe in chemical medicine. He seemed to have a more natural/wholistic view of things. When he was off his meds, he didn't get dangerous, but he was a bit obsessive and thereby a little freaky.
He tried to friend me on Facebook a few weeks ago. I ignored it as last time things got a bit out of control with him, and I didn't want that happening again. When he was manic he got obsessive, but when he was depressed, he could go for days, weeks even without moving from one spot.
Did I do the rigjht thing? Did I have anything to do with his ultimate decision? Am I just being concieted in turning everything around so that it has something to do with me?
RIP JDS. I am truly sorry for whatever hurt I may have caused, and I hope you finally find the peace you were searching for.
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