Ugh, January was a disaster. I'm glad Feb is almost here. I need a change of pace. Between the Gipper, the home situation, school (or the wanting of it), things just feel a bit out of control.
Or at least during January. But I'm going to put the whole "dating" the Gipper fiasco, such as it was, out of mind. Along with the sleeping with him (again such as it was) out of mind. (I do want to add though, it was wonderful just snuggling next to him. I've never felt so comfortable and in the right place as I do when I'm with him.) He's back to chasing little young Asian things. I know I sound so awful saying it like that, I'm sure they're nice, but well, we'll see where it all goes. I know that he just needs to chase right now. Once he's done, I'll still be here. My tarot & horoscope keep saying just let things go and try not be so controlling of my life. So fine. I'm letting go. I'm going to back off a bit and give him his space. Give him the month of Feb and see if he's gotten any of the chasing out of his system, Because truth be told, I can so see myself with him, making a life, having a family, both being very happy and content with each other. We'll see. Let go, Let go.
I have way more important things to focus on for right now. More important for right now to be sure. I've got the GREs to study for, especially since I totally bombed them on Friday. And the whole cell phone thing, I can't even believe it happened at all. It was like a surreal movie, where you're yelling at the screen, put it back in the locker! don't pick it up! etc, etc. I have to retake them mid-Feb to have any chance of having the scores to Drexel by their March 1 deadline. I could have sworn the deadline was mid Feb last time I looked. I can't help but feel that G-d is in my corner giving me extra time to not f**k it up this time. I really need to study and find a way to practice on the computer.
Then there's the whole house thing. Hopefully we see some action by the end of the month. There was that guy who came from the spray service who showed some interest. Maybe he's the one? We'll see. But if I don't get out of the situation we're all in so, I feel like I might explode. The Gipper mentioned that I might want to look in Jersey for an apartment, and I can't help feeling like he might be right. I'll definitely get more bang for my buck there, and I'll have room for my car too.
The Princess just got a new Passat. Her old one had an oil leak that would have been too much to fix. Her new car (granted it's an '09) cost less than Gilly! How do you like that!
What else? I saw the Kings Speech for the second time with Boobs. She's been wanting to see it and I didn't mind going z second time. We went to Sabrinas on 9th and went up the Italian Market while we waited. I really need to go there more often, for all the times I've driven down there, I've never gotten out and walked around. De3finitely will need to go back in the spring. Maybe I'll have my new place by then. I hear Fante's calling! And IKEA with Shira. I already know the kitchen table set I want, and some other shelving and such. I'll have to see what I have left one the whole house selling thing is over. But with my tax refund from this year, I should be doing some what ok.
I'm dying to get a new computer. I may just let Mommy have the one I got last year since she's getting the most use out of it anyway and get myself a Mac. Gipper will be very excited to help with that purchase I'm sure. So much more satisfying than the iPhone he's been hocing me to get. (Which I'll be able to get a new backflip with the insurance I just got to replace my broken screen one). And once I get into Drexel, I'll qualify for the educational discount Apple offers. I feel like I'm on the precipice of some really good things. And I can't help but think in the back of my mind that the Gipper may be waiting to see if and how I get out of my tie up with Mommy and the house and off on my own. Almost like he needs to see me do that to prove to himself that I will. Again,. we'll see.
I have good feelings for the spring though. It will be busy but very exciting. And I've had sedentary life for far too long. It's time to get back out there! 2011 here I come, so bring it on!
